Just how much can we handle

Recently, Shawn and I recieved custody of Haylea and Tina... we had Larry to, but the court system gave him to his dad. So lately we have had to convert out garage into a bedroom for the girls, complete with carpet, bunk beds, dressers, and even posters on the wall to make it "homey." We have 6 people living in a two bedroom house.... well now with the garage a bedroom I guess you could say three bedroom. Bryanna and Allen both cry out during the night, so to keep one from waking the other, Allen is in our room with his baby bed, Bryanna has her room with her toddler bed, and the girls have the garage. We stay busy, with me working and going to school, Haylea has high school and the homework load that comes with that plus marching band on top of it all. Tina started a new school because we live in Hartford and can't afford to drive her back and forth to Southern all the time, and has now asked if she can do gymnastics or basketball, both of which change depending on the mood. Then you have Bryanna and Allen who are always running around doing this or getting into that.... However, we are doing fine, we take things mostly on a day to day basis... who has practice, whos going to be late for dinner, whos in the shower now, what time is- crap you should have been in bed an hour ago... but yeah, we are functioning.
However, Wendy calls today asking if the court system takes Larry away if Shawn and I will take him back.... I asked if there was anyone else.... the response is "no, so are you going to take him or are you going to send him to foster care?" What am I suppose to say to this?!
Shawn and I are just starting out our marriage, we have two young kids, the two girls, and she doesn't understand that we are pushing the limit, both on living space, and sanitity.
There are days I dont know if I will get to sleep, most nights I dont get to before 11 or 12, just to get back up at 5:30 and start all over again....
I've talked to Mom, and of course her house wont pass, Wendy says Mamma isnt a blood relative so he cant go there, Heather and Timmy and Noah are still trying to figure out this new way of functioning.... so Shawn and I are the only ones left.... I guess thats the answer... of no, theres not anyone else....

Lifes Challenges

I have always been brought up that God wont give you any more then what you can handle. Here lately though, I am beginning to think that he thinks my plate is a serving platter when its actually a saucer.............
I could say that my past two years have been a roller coaster ride, with its ups and downs, but with more ups then downs..... until here lately. Lately there are more downs then ups.
In Sept. of '07 Shawn and I received a wonderful gift from God, are perfectly healthy little Bryanna. Then in November, we got married, it wasn't the wedding of our dreams, but it will work until we have the one we really want. This is made us happy, we were a family, tied together by our vows to God.
Feb. of '08 brought the news that we were to have another baby. Allen came in Oct of '08 which was another wonderful gift.
November came, we celebrated our one year anniversary together. We had a wonderful Thanksgiving, full of love and laughter, and celebrating Dads birthday. Then two days later we were drop kicked with the loss of Austin.
Austin is more then a nephew to me, I have always been close to him, and he always seemed more like my little brother then my nephew.... Which I guess is why I always called him "Bub" and have never been able to call any of the others that.
When Austin died, we never really had a reason. He was a young man with the world in the palm of his hands. Even though I know hes in a better place, it took me along time to not blame God. There are still days that I start to think if God is so great then why. But I try to quickly push it away and remember that no matter how much it hurts, he is in a better place, I never have to worry about him, and I will see him again one day.
My roller coaster seemed like it was just on a down hill coast and then in a low valley for the longest time, waiting for a reason for Austins death. Then even when we got one, it wasn't good enough and it still left me with God said it was time. I have no idea how Heather, Tim and Noah deal with this, or even how my mom has.....
Then as if we all haven't been through enough, Pappa died on Monday night. We were all expecting it, and he really was suffering, but its still hard. And I worked Tuesday ( which is when I found out), so I was crying at work.
Some older woman had the indecency to tell me they come in threes. Yes i know this but right after i had found out was not a good time to tell me. I threw her money in the drive thru drawer and told her to have a nice day because i knew i wouldn't and walked away from the window.
I know that I probably take all this a little to hard, and that i have dealt with it in ways that i shouldn't have, but i am working on it.